Sorry for not writing anything the past week, and sorry for writing this in English, but I just wanna write it in English. Today, I discovered a very important thing: I am not what I am. Isn't it astonishing? I am not what I am. I am the way u see me. I am ur ideas, injustices, expectations, preconceived thoughts…. I am what u see, and u see me in a far different way.. u see a very different one than the person I am, a very different ME.
I have an idea. Let's play the Russian roulette. In case u do not know it, I'll explain. It is a game in which players place one bullet in a six-shooter, then spin its cylinder, and place the muzzle against themselves. They believe that the lucky ones will survive and I say the unlucky one is the survivor. Anyway.. I wanna play it, but with six bullets inside ur revolver. Now, shot me. Can u shot me? Can u even know who I am? Where I am? Why don't u blow up the damned one inside ur head? Why do u know me just when u r killing me, when u r hurting me? Isn't it a lame universe? Isn't it lame?